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I Knew Him Once... [Nov. 20th, 2012|12:08 am]
alblurkinbhindu
[music |Gypsy-Gardens and Villas]

He liked to read.
Books. Words.
Page after page.
And yet,
He never read me…
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Maganda [Nov. 11th, 2012|01:34 am]
alblurkinbhindu
[music |Punching in a Dream~The Naked and the Famous ]

“You’re maganda,” he said. Maganda? What about me is ‘maganda’?

Is it my heart that has broken a thousands times after realizing I’ve been disenfranchised since birth? My mind that has suffered confusion over being torn between two cultures and has faced rejection from both?

Is it my facial features like almond eyes and a flat nose that have given me an ‘exotic’ look but are only visible reminders that I am and will always be thought of as ‘other’? My body that has been bruised and beaten by those who saw me as subhuman and whose fear and hatred against anything foreign drove and pushed them to punish me for being different?

Is it my voice that represents individuals like my mixed ancestors who have been marginalized throughout history and has been suppressed by acts of prejudice and racism? Or even my soul and the oppression it has encountered as an innocent victim to adversity?

How could he see beauty when all I could see in myself was pain? Maybe someday I’ll have the strength to see what he sees and maybe someday ‘maganda’ will be an understatement.
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Queer EYE!!!!!!!!!! [Jul. 30th, 2012|06:35 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |Wrong Opinion~Chairlift]

Looked at my Ipod library. Saw Queer Eye theme song was downloaded. Figures...
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Know You'll Always Be the One [Mar. 12th, 2012|05:07 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[mood |restlessrestless]
[music |Hideaway~Karen O]

We'll have a bit of fun watching everyone pass by.
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You Gotta Have Faith [Jan. 17th, 2012|01:16 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |Municipality~Real Estate]

If you don't have faith in your friendships and relationships with others than how do you expect them to ever work out?
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We Don't Even Care As Restless As We Are... [Jan. 12th, 2012|11:04 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[mood |sleepysleepy]
[music |1979 (cover) ~RAC ft. Liz Anjos]

Sometimes you can have one perfect moment with somebody but that’s just it. It’s just a moment. Most of the time, it doesn’t mean anything because memories lose meaning and that one person with whom you shared that moment with might not be thinking about that moment or even you the following day. It happens and it doesn’t make them a bad person. Some people just see value and meaning in different things and maybe they experienced that same instance differently than you did.
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I Drew it on a Post-It [Jan. 8th, 2011|07:32 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[mood |creativecreative]
[music |Boyfriend~Best Coast]

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When did I... [Jan. 5th, 2011|01:07 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[mood |draineddrained]
[music |Don't Worry Baby~Beach Boys]

When did I become such a heart breaker?!
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Time to... [Dec. 30th, 2010|11:31 pm]
alblurkinbhindu
[Current Location |livingroom]
[mood |busybusy]
[music |Lucidity~Tame Impala]

Time to pack! Leaving New Year's day!
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Random Thought [Nov. 24th, 2010|04:00 am]
alblurkinbhindu
[music |Who Knows, Who Cares~Local Natives]

You are what you think you aren't.
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